I was re-watching 1 Litre of Tears, it’s dorama – Japan Serial Movie talking about Aya have incureable desease. When I first watch it-like in 2005 ago, it was very sad. But when i watched it again, it still sad but not make me crying, i was just “oh so pity”
In that story tell us about how to appreciate life, when Aya caught she had incurable desease – spinocerebellar degeneration, she just ask herself “why me? i just 15 years old”. No one knows when your life ended, so do i. Because of that, we always teached to thanks to God for every second we have, including the happiness or sadness feeling at the moment.
Since i’m not a good teller story, so take the summary from wikipedia :
Aya Kitō was diagnosed with a disease called spinocerebellar Degeneration when she was 15 years old. The disease causes the person to lose control over their body, but because the person can retain all mental ability the disease acts as a prison. So in the end she cant eat, walk or talk.
Through family, medical examinations and rehabilitations, and finally succumbing to the disease, Aya must cope with the disease and live on with life until her death at the age of 25.
Here is one of Ikeuchi Aya’s Diary – which is my fave :
My life is like a flower that hasn’t bloomed yet.
From the start of this youth, I want to treasure it and have no regrets.
Okaasan. In my heart, I know I can always trust my mom.
From this point forward, I leave it for you.
I’m sorry for always making you worry.
This disease, why it did choose me?
Fate. It can’t be put into words.
I want to make a time machine and go back in time.
If it wasn’t for this disease, not only I could I enjoy falling in love but I also wouldn’t have to rely on anyone and live by myself.
I really don’t want to say things such as “I want to go back to how things were before”.
I recognize how I am right now, and I will continue to live on.
Therefore I definitely won’t run away.
That’s what I’ll do. Definitely, always.
Even if it’s like that, I still want to stay here.
Because this is the place where I am.
To be able to be seen as an equal by my friends, I’m really thankful.
“We’ve started to like reading, under Aya’s influence”, they said.
“Ah! that’s great”. I didn’just only make trouble for them…
Thinking like this, I’ve started not mind it that much.
If you look up at the sky after falling down the blue sky is also today stretching limitlessly and smiles at me… I’m alive.
There are still four days until school ends.
Seems like that because of me, everyone is folding a thousand paper cranes.
The looks they had when they were folding so diligently,
I’m going to keep them deep in my memory.
Even when we’ve been separated, I will never forget them. But… I’d rather hear them say “Aya-chan, don’t go.”
People shouldn’t dwell on the past. It’s enough to try your best in all that you’re doing now.
The sounds, “ma”, “wa”, “ba” and “n” have become hard to pronounce.
I can only breathe out air instead of saying it. So I can’t communicate with others.
Recently, I have been talking to myself a lot. I didn’t like it before,
but to practice pronouncing, I have to do it. I will not give up on speaking…
Reality is too cruel, too brutal. I don’t even have the right to dream.
As I think about the future, the tears will come out again.
Where should I head towards? Even if there isn’t an answer, I’ll feel better by writing it down.
I’ve looked for a pair of helping hands. But I couldn’t feel them, couldn’t see them.
I only face towards the darkness and hear sounds of my hopeless screams.
Okaasan, will I be able to get married?